yesterday was one of the best days in foreverr. :) its pretty amazingg how u just wake up and have a feeling its gonna b a good day and it ends up being a good day :) eeee :DD sooo happy. yesterday was just full of suprisess, todayyy is pretty good :D i have a good feeling like the best feeling in the world right nowww no ones gonna change or put me in a bad mood my moood is set to happy atm :)
it’s written all on paper right in front of you.. everything.. you’ve read it a million timess. how do you not remember i feel like you’ve forgotten & it’s time for me to remind you. we’ve talked about forgetting beforee & we’ve always said if anything was forgotten it would be one of our jobs to remind eachother<3 im gonna sit here even if it takes days.a month. a year. im gonna do whatever it takes to just make u remember. ikk you remember it’s all there u can’t just forgot you can try but it wont work. ” how can you forget someone when they gave you so much to remember” thats right u can’t forget you can’t forget all the shitt we’ve been through . you can’t forget how we got passed it and got through it all.. sometimes i don’t understand whyy..? it suckss but sometimes i understand but i don’t even knoww… “It’s 4:03, and I can’t sleep Without you next to me, I toss and turn like the sea If I drown tonight, bring me back to life Breathe your breath in me The only thing that I still believe in is you If you only knew” i held onto everything you have given\ made me i will.. i still have alot of ur clothes that was giveenn to mee i sleep in them every night & prayy that you’ll come backk for me like you saidd. “im falling apart im barley breathingg with a broken heart” it can’t be fixedd you were the one that fixed it in the begining i can feel my insides killing mee. i think about it all day & everydayy i wonder if you think it too im just soo curiouss it suckss not talkinng as much. it suckss not hearing ur voicee i miss itt. & what i miss the most is the sound of ur heart beat everytimee i hugged you. i could always see ur heart beat through ur shirtt it was the best… ill never forget that late december night on ur couchh everything that was saidd. everything tht was felt. im always going to remember even if you forget… please don’t forget .. you knoww everyone constantly sayss it will get better your gonna forget and get overr it.. you know what it may get better but im NEVER going to forget. & ill NEVER get over it … it’s not that easyy & only i will understand whyy… it suckks badly … i act like im finee i pretend like nothings wrong and everyone believes it ur the only one that see’s passed that fake smile. that laughh.. you know the real mee. i miss everything about you… your blue eyess.. how you kiss me softly just everythingg. ” im just a little too not over you” more like alott but you knoww what im gonna act like everythings fine im gonna act like nothings wrongg. you know the saying ” if you really love someone let them go & if they come back they were always your’s and if they don’t they never were” well i hear that soo muchh but its hard too let go . why let go? theres soo much to hold onto so much i remember good memories theres soo much . laughs . smiles. everythingg. ahh if i really want somethingg im goingg to fight for what i wantt im gonna do whatever it takes to get itt. i know i used to give up but thats not me anymoree if i want something im gonna fight till i get it … even if it means pretendingg that nothinggs wrong .. even if it means going through alot of pain… b mean to me idc do what u wantt im not gonna let anything stop mee.. not thiss timee.. ILOVEYOU. BELIEVE.HOPE.FAITH<3 PATIENCE
I WANT YOU<3 ” no one said this was going to be easy … were going to have to work on this everyday… but im willing to because I WANT YOU everyday YOU & ME!!
(Source: anthonyyyy)
AHH i havnt been on here for awhille well last week sucked really bad! <\3 this week is just terrable its all that runs through my mind. I feel like if i have fun maybe i wont think of it as much.. i tried to hangout with friends have fun, sleepover it was still there the same feeling the same thoughts it suckss soo bad. everything that was said runs thorugh my mind, i go to sleep to sleep it off its my last thoughts of the day & my first thoughts in the morning. your still and will always will b my first thoughts of the day and my last before i sleep. your there ur gonna stay there, on the inside of me . it suckss soo bad, no one really gets or understands it at all the feeling im having its a feeling of hope.belive.&faith. then theres the feeling of doubt </3 but all the inspiring words that run through my mind are BELIEVE.FAITH.HOPE. then the quote ” the human heart feels what the eyes cannot see & knows what the mind cannnot understand” ever heard of follow ur heart or never give up on someone you can’t go a day without thinking about? i do all the timee. i said i wasn’t going to give up. even if it kills me i still wont give up because thats what i said i would do from the start and Im keeping my word. im keeping my word reguardless of what people say or think or think whats “best” for me no one knows whats best for me only me as a person knows whats best for me. most say just give up orr not even worth it all i say is k.? thats ur opinion the opinion that matters the most is mine and what i believe not what other people believe. suree in time i guess it will get “better” ill admit it will. butt im still going to have those feelings you know why?… im not even going to bother saying why because all of you wouldn’t understand even if i explained it a million times and trust me i havee. no one gets how i feel. how this time its different. how he’s different im the ONLY one that will understand how and why he iss.. ik it suckss because ur trying to figure out all thiss ur trying to figure out the “story” behind it all. well; honestly there is a story but you know what im not going to say one word because its none of ur concern & you just wouldn’t get why its like this at the moment . why i feel like thiss. why am i still chasing after when it’s already half way gone.. well because im not giving up. NEVER SAY NEVER !!!! theres gonna b that time again. i can feel it maybe not today or tomorrow heckk maybe not even this month or the month after that but u know what im willing to do WHATEVER IT TAKES!!! even if it kills me on the inside even if i have doubts sometimess. i have my inspiring words i have my memories i have everything to keep me goingg no matter what. even if u out of all the people say give up IM NOT! ” going back to the corner where i first saw u gonna camp in my sleeping bag im not gonna move” “everytime i see your face my heart takes off on a high speed chase now don’t b scared its only love baby that were falling in” so many songs replay in my head everyday some depressing , some inspiring, & most of all heart warming . they give me a chance to thinkk .. think why im doing , why im waiting. why it’s worth it. ” if its loveee and we decide that it’s forever no one else can do it better” ahh theres justt soo muchh to sayy but all that i can say is no ones gonna change my mind. i have my mind set im choosing to wait. b patient. have faith, always believe even if it killss me on the insidee. DAY BY DAY! FOREVER&ALWAYS<3 “never give up on somone you can’t go a day without thinking about” “never give up even if times are hard” ” ohh these times are hard & there making us crazy don’t give up on me babbyyy” (:
todays just an amazing day :) one month me and my cutie have been going out I swear best thing thats ever happened to me :) he changed my whole life :) when i was a wreck he was there for me and I cant thank him enough for that he makes me soooo fucking happy I hope he knows that hes soo special to me :DD (: ……… ahhh and also just my friends make my life and complete it without the friends i have in my life i wouldnt be complete :DD they complete me and their always there for me :DD and I can’t thank them enough for always being there for me too when I needed them :DD I love you guys <3
